Thankful

I am feeling so very thankful today. I don't know why, I just had one of those moments today. A moment where I felt like I was out of my body looking down at my family and I. We weren't doing anything that we normally wouldn't. We were having our coffee (the twinks their juice) out on the back deck, Twink A snuggled up with DH and Twink B snuggled up with me, discussing what our plans were for the day. My eyes filled up with tears when I thought about how lucky we are. It was the kind of moment where I just wanted the world to stop and to live in that moment forever.

Everyone in our family is healthy, relatively happy and we are together. So many families can't say that and it breaks my heart. Often times life gets in the way of me realizing how fortunate I am. When meetings with the teacher (which went well by the way lol), work, housework and other "stuff" become somewhat overwhelming I often forget that I should thank God for having the family that I do.

Okay, I will stop gushing now. I just felt today that I have been worrying over things that really don't matter. Work (other than the paycheque attached to it lol) doesn't matter. Having a "marthastewartsupercleanyoucaneatoffanysurface" house doesn't matter. What matters most was sitting around me this morning while I was enjoying my hot cup of coffee. That is what counts.

Going To Talk to the Teacher

I want to start out by saying thank you too all you lovely ladies who commented on my previous post. It made me smile. Thank you.

Now on with my post. It is only the second week of school and I need to go talk to the boys teacher. Not because they are misbehaving or acting out. In fact the teacher told me on Friday that they are adjusting "beautifully" to grade one and are a "treat" to have in her class. I am meeting her because Twink A is successfully pulling the wool over her eyes.

All the work that he has brought home has been atrocious. I don't just mean the printing is a little messy, I mean if I didn't have Twink B's to compare it to I would have absolutely NO idea what the heck he had written. I asked him what Mrs. D thought about it and he smiled his "ya gotta love me" smile and said,"I told her I was doing my bestest" then, "that way I can finish the work fast and still get to have play time". Nice. He has already scammed her and he has only been in class 6 days.

Tomorrow is the day that his little scam is over. I am going in to talk to her and tell her if he has completed garbage and make him do it over again. If she doesn't I will.

Juggling

I never really thought of myself as a circus performer until the last week. The kids are in school full time (still can't get my head wrapped around that one) and I have started working full time hours (albeit from home but still around 40 hours a week).

I never realized how incredibly hard this would be. Trying to do everything that the kids need, everything that DH needs, keeping up with the housework and gasp...work too! I have been getting up at 5:30am and not getting to sleep until 11:00pm and not stopping in between.

DH and I had a talk last night and discussed the need for more help for me. He needs to step up and help me out more. The kids need to step up and help me more. I need to ask for help more. I have come to realize that asking for help doesn't make me weak.

The stepford wife is definately an illusion, I always strived to be somewhat stepfordy (yes I just created a word....sue me) I wanted to be a little bit of Martha Stewart (home baking and gardening included) a little bit Lisa Love (for you Hills fans you know who I am talking about) and a little bit Angelina Jolie.

I am none of these. I am juggling all these new responsibilities with the old ones and I am worried about how long I can do that. When are things going to come crashing down?